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I made oboe reeds for three people who started learning oboe in a class today and when the last one got his reed he said, ‘what do I owe you?’ and I said, ‘lunch sometime’ & he seemed pretty happy with that. I’m so pleased with myself. I just got a date in exchange for a reed.

I can tell the strength of my love for someone by whether or not I’m okay with them interrupting a movie to kiss me. You’ve got to be pretty damn special to get away with that.

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Oh my god.

So I played in a grad student’s conducting recital a couple weeks ago. The grad student asked for everyone’s phone number so he could contact us about rehearsals. Cool. I show up to the first rehearsal, didn’t get the text he said he sent to everyone, so he read me back the number he…

Update: he asked if I wanted to hang out sometime “just the two of us” how do I politely say “I’m still pretty hung up on my ex and I’d rather not be, you seem like a nice guy but I don’t know if that would be a great idea or a really shitty one”?

Oh my god.

So I played in a grad student’s conducting recital a couple weeks ago. The grad student asked for everyone’s phone number so he could contact us about rehearsals. Cool. I show up to the first rehearsal, didn’t get the text he said he sent to everyone, so he read me back the number he had for me- and it was my parents’ house phone in KC. I figured I must have been tired and sent him the wrong phone number by accident- but when I looked back later at the email I sent him, I did send him my correct cell number. I have no idea where he got my parents’ phone number from. I never got any texts from him, even after giving him my correct number again.

Today I got a text from a random number I didn’t have in my phone contacts, with an area code from Texas, just saying ‘hey, what’s up? :)’. I bet you can see where this is going, but I didn’t have a clue when I looked up the number, I was baffled as to who from Texas might be calling me. (I only know Shelby is from Texas, and she’s in Japan right now!) I got a reply back, and yes, it is that grad student.

Let’s see where this leads, shall we?

"You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch.

Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but it’s really just a habit. Thirty days without it, and you would be fine. You think you have a soul mate, but in fact you could have had any number of spouses. You would have evolved differently, but been just as happy.

You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like.

If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way.

Set fire to your old self. It’s not needed here. It’s too busy shopping, gossiping about others, and watching days go by and asking why you haven’t gotten as far as you’d like. This old self will die and be forgotten by all but family, and replaced by someone who makes a difference.

Your new self is not like that. Your new self is the Great Chicago Fire—overwhelming, overpowering, and destroying everything that isn’t necessary.

"

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